I've made up my mind!

I'm Gonna Be a ???? Are you Ready?  A DANCER!!   HA HA HA
I've just spent the last 45 minutes Dancing (Wii Style) and I Freaking Love it. One of my Favorite dances is by the Pussycat Dolls and it seems fitting where as I'm trying to decide just that, Maybe the Pussycat dolls have it all figured out for me.
When I grow up I wanna be famous, I wanna be a star, I wanna be in movies
When I grow up I wanna see the world, drive nice cars, I wanna have groupies
When I grow up,I wanna see me, me on TV, people know me, be on magazines
When I grow up, freshly cleaned, number one chick, wanna step out on the scene
 Well as far as Dancing is concerned,
 Am I coordinated? Nope,  Do I have Rhythm?  Not exactly, Is it pretty to watch? Not quite, Do I have the Girlish Figure?  Heck No, But can I move? Well Yes, Yes I can.  I will say that I have more energy since my recent weight loss and so Dancing is really fun, but I'm not really sure I'm cut out to be a Dancer. So I guess it's back to the Drawing Board. So much for having my mind made up. Maybe Next time :)

Updates

Here's a little update on my life! Lame, I know
Life is good for the most part, headaches still going strong, still a hoarder, but each day I'm getting closer to being just a "Clutter Organizer" and I'm good with that for now :) , still deciding what to do as far as what I'll be when I Grow up, and praying for answers as far as where my life should go NOW. Looking forward to the Weekend more than I have in a Long time,  not looking forward to teaching Sunday, Loved going tanning, boy did I need that,  spending time with my Niece, cuddling under a blanket so we didn't freeze while watching Scooby Doo, Her Fave, Not mine. thankful it's Fast Sunday, and not High Council Sunday, No offense, but sometimes Fast Sunday's are just more eventful. Excited for the Super Bowl, Wait, Jk I am not a Football fan , but I want to make some yummy food, because let's be honest, I've been depriving myself of yummy food for Way too long, and I want to just eat some Delish, fatty food. I've been adding a few things in this week for Preparation, so I don't puke. Bring on the Game, okay, just the food is fine :)  Thankful for Amazingly patient people in my life who put up with me and all my Craziness. All in all a pretty boring post, but boring is good sometimes.

A Work in Progess

I have decided that my life lately, seems like a big ole Work in Progress. I'm learning daily that, I can't rely on myself, but that I need to Rely on someone much much greater. This week especially, I have realized that I need Heavenly Father in my life,  more than I have needed him in a long time. Now that being said, When I say much more, I have always needed him, but it's evident to me that I need more help in my life to figure out what and how to be happy. Life is interesting, and when you think you've got it all figured out, and are coasting along like you've got it all under control. BAM out of the blue you hit a big Speed bump, with a sign that says, Nice Try you are not in Control. Is this just my life? 
 I'm so grateful for the Gospel and for the knowledge that I have a Loving Heavenly Father, who is there for me No Matter What. What a Great blessing this has been. I know that as I put my trust in him, he will guide me in a direction that will help me find  happiness.

You are a Hoarder.. Say What?

Okay it's confession time. I am a Hoarder!! This is not a proud moment for me and This is Not a personal picture of my crap, rest assured.
Wow that feels good to get that out in the open. Ha Ha Alright in all honesty I am not a hoarder, I'm a Collector :) There is a difference, I'm just sure of it.
I have been told that I will never find a husband, because when he sees all my collections, he will Bail. Well sorry Man of My Dreams, I can't let that happen.
 Last week when I realized this, I decided to make a change. I have been working hard to get rid of stuff, let me tell ya, Not Easy. When I worked at the Craft store(BIG MISTAKE) I saw all these new and fun ideas and had the money to waste on crap, and that is just what I did. Now I still have it, and for the most part they are still unused, or tried and failed projects. So it's time!! I am doing well and feeling good about reclaiming my space. Can't wait to have a space where I can just go to relax or do my craft projects, that don't get chucked. Wish me Luck. Hopefully I can keep my motivation and help supply the D.I. with lots of fun new things.

What are you gonna be when you grow up??

                         Well this has been the big question on my mind lately.

I know that basically I'm already grown, okay, not basically, Let's face it, I AM A GROWN UP, 

but lately I feel the need to answer this question for myself.  It's about time. I know

Sometimes I would like to kick myself for being stupid and stubborn. When I graduated from High School, the thought of willingly going back to School was an outrageous thought.  Now I wish that someone would have told me it wasn't an option. Thanks for nothing, Mr. Ballock for relentlessly informing and impressing on my "Young" mind, that "School's Not For Everyone"!! I sure appreciate that

I have been so Lucky the last 6 years to have what in my opinion, I call " A Great Job".

The job, like most has it's drawbacks or hard parts.  I have to be up early to go sit on a cold bus, and ride to school with sweet kids who are tired, and crying because they want their mommies. I promise, at that time in the morning, I want their mommies too!! :) Did I mention Potty training? because isn't that a Parents job? well I can answer that for ya, it should be BUTT, it's Miss. Stacy's job, Maybe when I have kids they will come out potty trained, because I've done my fair share, okay more than my fair share, but whose counting?  I guess I am :) and the toughest part. Child Abuse.

I knew that child abuse was a real thing, but boy did I have my eyes opened when I started working in the school system. What a heartbreaking thing! I can't count how many kids, I have wanted to kidnap so that they would be safe, just for one night. It literally makes me want to puke to think about some of the nightmares, "my" little kids, have had to deal with in their 3-5 years of life. It's also hard to see these amazing kids who have incredible challenges and will probably never live a "normal" life. I've worked with kids who have passed away early from their conditions.Oh the things I have seen, and learned from working with these incredible kids. Some days, I come home emotionally drained.  But I Love it. Along with the tough parts, My life has been blessed by these kids

 I have been able to see incredible things happen, that to some may seem like simple things, but to me it brings tears to my eyes, to see a child take 5 steps alone, or to see a crippled child pedal a tricycle 10 ft down the hall, or to walk in and have a child that they said wouldn't be able talk say  "Miss.Stacy" with some serious excitement.  Seriously some of the best days of my life.

Right now I'm feeling burnt out and really feel like I need a change. It makes me cry, to even think of missing out on "My Kid" time. I Love them, but I feel like it's time.  But what's next??  No Clue

Oh I hate decisions like this. I guess that I just have to put my trust in Heavenly Father and know that he will help guide me to what's best for me right now.  Decisions, decisions!

Wow this is like a novel. Sorry

SO FRUSTRATED I COULD...

SCREAM, CRY, SWEAR, PUNCH SOMEONE OR SOMETHING, or JUST RANT ON MY BLOG. 

I know that life isn't fair, or meant to be easy, we are supposed to learn things, apply them to life, grow and move on to become responsible and productive human beings who make the world a better place. Well I'm just gonna say it.
LIFE SUCKS !!

Sometimes I feel like I try so hard to do what's right in life and BAM!! It bites me in the butt.  Why even try?  Well because, it's important, or something..

I've decided that in my life, I'm the quiet and shy type, that puts up with, oh just about anything.(Outside, my home,that is) and I let anyone who wants too walk all over me or treat me like crap.  I know that will probably never change, so I should just shut up Now.  But I've been told, I always have to have the last say, So why would this be any different.

I wish that I could have the guts to say what's on my mind, when it's on my mind. Not after the fact. 

I just don't understand why some people are the way they are, and can't be more like me?  ha ha. No really though??

I know that I'm under confident and a people pleaser, but I'm tired of dealing with all this crap! 

I hate that Satan always has a way of making me feel like I'll never be good enough.  Maybe someday, I'll get the opportunity to punch him in the face. Wouldn't that be nice?

Anyways, maybe I can just take this day as another learning experience and realize that I should try harder to stick up for myself.  Who am I trying to kid?

Okay so enough from the angry, bitter  Stacy.

Hope everyone has a TERRIFIC day. :)

DR Update

So I went to the Dr yesterday and the Results!! I'm not InFertile.  Um Okay, Thanks for that Doc :)
Back to the Dr update. I went in to see if this new Dr could give me any insights into why, I've been having constant Headaches. Well this Dr. had me put my hand on this machine and it sent electrical currents through the body and gives a body analysis. you sit fully clothed, which I loved, and it doesn't hurt, which I also love.
So the conclusion, besides the fact that I'm good on the fertility front, is that I have really severe headaches. uh huh, I knew that! Dr. Thayne explained that there are 3 levels of headaches, regular, migraine and really severe, and well I have level 3 headaches and it's because my body is almost depleted of Lithium. causing it not to function properly. When he first said Lithium, I thought "Isn't that in Batteries?? Maybe I'll just start eating batteries. Would that work??  maybe, but for now he has given me some Lithium supplements to take. I guess, I'll go that route, for now. I'm really hoping and praying it works. It would be so nice not to have so much pain in my head.  I also learned a few other things about my body and that I have several things that are not balanced but he said I should not worry to much. I am excited to see what happens. We shall see in 2 months when I go back for a follow up.