BIG BONES

Big Boned!!  I Absolutely HATE this saying ,when it comes to people's Weight, Especially my own. Who wants to hear that they " Are Pleasantly Plump or BIG BONED"?! I sure didn't want to, BUT

I've been doing some thinking lately and for almost a month, I have been Really emotional. Life with Willow (Grandma) has been Less than fun, and I have had so many emotions running through my head. I LOVE Willow So Much and have been so thankful for the good times, and the laughs, I know someday, I'll look back and be so grateful for ALL my time spent with her, even the less than glamorous times! Are you wondering where I'm Going with the Bones??    

This past 2 weeks, have become way more physical, when it comes to caring for Willow. She has become really dependant and is needing A lot of Physical help, It is Exhausting and I am honestly beat. I have cried so much, because I feel physically, mentally and emotionally tired, and I wish I could do more, but I can't!! It's so hard to feel like you are Failing the one person who counts on you!!
Anyways back to the Bones, I know that if I Didn't have these Big Bones, I would Not be able to do the things that are required of me at this point in the game, so because I'm trying to find the positive in the current situation, I am Grateful that I have Big Strong Bones, so I can lift and help the Willow out where she needs!!  Love Ya Willow

A Few Of My Favorite Things!! Ok Maybe more than a few

Well to Begin I Love the Sound of Music and this song and I secretly wish I was a Von Trapp Family singer :)
I thought it'd be fun to list some of my Favorite things today, instead of taking a much needed Sunday Nap!
 Here goes in No particular order
* Chocolate, Especially English Choc -YUM
*My Niece- She makes me smile so much, and I can't wait to meet her Baby BROTHER :) :)
*White Chip Macadamia Nut cookies from Subway
*Dirty Dancing the Original- I Love You-Patrick Swayze!!
*My Family- I'm so Lucky- Shh- they are pretty Lucky too :)
*Otter Pops- Pink, Blue and Orange- OK Green too, just not red!
*Music- current faves-Rolling in the Deep(Adele) Price tag(Jessie J & B.o.B) Lazy Song(Bruno Mars) Friday(Glee Version) Jar of Hearts & Bang Bang Bang(Christina Perri) Just to name a few
* Mowing the Lawn and how great it looks and smells afterward
*Tanning
*Girls Camp- Oh the Memories. Can you say "Chubby Bunny??" I CAN
*Glee
*Pink-Anything and Everything- Except my Meat!!
*Lemonberry Slush's from Sonic
*Massages
*Holidays spent with Family
* Burping LOUD- Oh I know "Not Very Ladylike"- Who Say's I'm trying to be Ladylike??
*Friends- They make life, so much better
*Fishing and and eating fried chicken with worm guts on my hands :) My Grandpa taught me it's OKAY
* Being Crafty
*BAKING- Something I absolutely LOVE
*Working with Special Needs Kids
*Playing Board games
*Dandelions
*Testimony Meetings around the Fire
*Peas from the Garden- Never Cooked, Just Fresh
*President. Hinckley & David B. Haight- 2 of my All time Favorite Men, and my new Favorites Elder. Jeffery R. Holland and Elder. David A Bednar- The rest are pretty great as well
* Holding soft squishy Babies
*Swimming & SUMMERTIME!!
*BBQ's
* Smelling Spring Blossoms
*Remember the Titans & The Blindside
*Jamba Juice- Caribbean Passion
* My Cell Phone- I'd be Lost without it. Sad but true
*My Chacos & Painted Toenails
*Thunderstorms & Someday Kissing in the Rain(maybe it's not as Romantic as it seems!!) I'll let ya know:)
*Grey's Anatomy & Biggest Loser
* Camping and Roasting Starbursts and Cinnamon Bears and Marshmallows all seperate of Course
* Feeling Safe
* Singing at the top of my Lungs- EVEN if I sound Like a Goat!! 
*Laughing until I Cry or Pee- Eww that has Never Happened : /
* Reading Scriptures and understanding them! Doesn't happen enough :(
* Acting Crazy
*What about Bob? The Ghost and Mr. Chicken and Mr. Boogedy
* Missionary Homecoming's
* Accomplishing hard things
* Church Leaders
* Party Planning
*Chick Flicks
*Making & Eating Cheesecake

Okay I think I could go on but I'll stop!! This was pretty fun to see how Blessed I am

THE ONLY THING WE HAVE TO FEAR, IS FEAR ITSELF

I Hate Fear, I hate how it freezes me! Silly statemnet, but it's so very True.
I have so many things that I would Love to do in this Life, and I don't because I let Fear stand in my way.
I've been thinking how many things I have passed up, because I was afraid for some reason or another.
I want to feel free. Sometimes I feel trapped and am not sure how to push through "My Fear Barrier"
I'm shy and awkward when I meet people, and have been told that I came across as unfriendly! I feel bad because that's not me, I Love people and learning about them, and becoming close friends. Friends are so important to me. They make my life Happy.
One of the things I have pushed aside is College
I am going to start the process soon to enroll ! I'm Terrified, but it's something I have wanted and needed to do For Years. I was crushed last week to find out that I didn't get my Summer position. I wanted it, I Needed it, But I have to know that Heavenly Father will look after me. He Always does :)
I know that I fear failure of enrolling in school, but if I fail, then at least I gave it my best shot.
Life is about taking chances and jumping back up, when you fall down.
So here goes my first step of looking Fear in the face and plowing through that wall!